Terms of Life

I don't know what I did in my past life to deserve the one I have now.

I love my family even though sometimes they get on my nerves. It's normal

I love my best friends. They know everything about me or almost everything.

The one thing in this life I don't care for is the fact that I'm a creature of emotion, yes all us humans are emotional at times. But I feel mine is to the extreme. I fall hard and fast emotionally first. I care, sometimes too much. People can say that's my weakness or my downfall. Another thing I hate about me is being impatient. It sucks. Yes patience is a virtue. Well I'm not getting any younger everyday; I already have grey hair and I'm not sure if that's hereditary, stress induced or well, I don't know, getting older!

I want my life to start already with someone. Someone who I can share things with, see the world, have memories that will be with me forever, take silly pictures that I look back on when I'm 50 years old and turn to my best friend (hopefully a future husband) and say, "what was I thinking?!?! Wearing a thing like that?!?!"

Thinking about this and not being able to have it, it breaks my heart.

Everyday I tell myself that if I have to live this life alone, then so be it. My friends and family will always be there for me. I believe and hope that it would be enough for now...

Dying Breed

It's funny how life really is. Some people treat you better than others. Some, not so much. I think it's rude how I, unfortunately, know some people who treat others better than I get treated. It doesn't bother me...very much. I just think it's unfair and rude of them. What happen to treat people equally or is it just the way people are now? Because really I was brought up way better than some people I know. With actual respect. Which I know, is rare to find. So good luck with that.

I was raised to treat people equally, treat people the way you want to be treated and mean what you say. So, I do treat everyone fairly. As much as I humanly can. How about the way I wanna be treated? Simply. I'll treat you the way you treat me. So if you treat me unkindly, don't ask me why I'm rude to you. See for yourself the way you treat it. I also think it's rude when I get treated poorly and I treat the person who's treating me poorly the way treat me but they get mad at me for it? Um, hello. You started it, I'm just simply following your attitude. So don't get huffy about it. Meaning what you say. Ahh, the million dollar mystery. Do I really mean my insults? Sometimes, but not all the time. But when I say I'll do something, I will do it. Not give some pathetic excuse, such as, 'things change' or my ever favorite, 'it's not like that now'. Well you said you'd promise to do something, but whatever. I guess it's a dying breed when someone says they'll do something but don't. Where has the humanity gone and kept promises gone? Are they just like Disney movies now? Just magic or lies? I'd like to know

Heartless

Some days I feel like the Queen of my Castle, and some days Cinderella. But piss me off, and I will immediately turn into the Wicked Witch of the West.

Sometimes I really want to punch you, but then I realize you have to look in the mirror every day and that's punishment enough.

sweet as sugar...hard as ice...hurt me once...i'll kill u twice

(B) Bold, (I) intelligent , (T) Thoughtful , (C) caring , and (H) Happy, RU? Well i guess not b/c u keep callin me that! soo thank u for noticing, i try hard!

I'm gonna try to be in a good mood. It may work, or it may cause me to go crazy and attack the next person who stares at me funny...

You might think you are all that because you are dating my ex, but I have just one question for you: 'HOW DO I TASTE?'

Asks: What do you do if you see your ex running around in your front yard covered in blood screaming for help?? 
A: stay calm, reload, and aim better.

B I T C H really stands for- "Boys, I'm Taking Charge Here"

I have a pocket full of 'F*CK You's and have already started passing them out this morning!

I can only please one person per day.... Today is not your day, and tomorrow doesn't look good either.... take a number and join the queue..

Don't worry I'm not jealous when i see you with another girl because i was taught to give my unwanted toys to the less fortunate

i am who i am - and sweety your approval is not needed

I am a woman, not a princess. I have an attitude, opinions, and a very loud voice. I am not a liar or a cheat. I am independent, intelligent, and strong.

The world will continue to try & tell you who you are...until you stand up & show the world exactly who you're gonna be.

Sweetie, the only fan you have, is the one on your ceiling.

Karma's gonna knock u down and I am gonna watch, point, and laugh

They sit there and gossip about me and spread lies like they spread their legs. But I sit back thinking man I've got a fan club, How can I piss em off next?

what pisses you off more? the fact that I'm happy or the fact that you're not?!

If you dont like me remember its mind over matter, I dont mind and you dont matter

When I saw you with that girl, that look you saw on my face wasn't jealousy.
It was simply me trying not to laugh

Table Rock 2011

Desolate

Can you imagine growing up and family and friends tell you that there's someone out there for you? Then you're about to graduate college, and still there's nobody. You wait, wait, wait and wait some more; but, sometimes you have doubts about someone being there for you; maybe he's out there somewhere, thinking of you, but he might be in Europe or in South America vacationing, and you wonder when you'll meet. Next week, next year, 2 years from now or before your 70th birthday.

Your best friends are in a happy and healthy relationships and you are over-the-moon happy for them, but some days you want that kind of happiness too. But not having it kinda makes you hopeless about your own life. You want to be happy, but you don't feel whole without having someone by your side while everyone's life is happening and you're stuck in the same spot for 21 years and you want change.

So here it is, stop. Just stop. Stop thinking about this one person you're meant to be, because if it is meant to be, it will happen. Just wait,. because when you do, it'll be worth it. You'll be happy and know the reason why it never worked out with anyone else. Just live life right now. Be happy with what you've go because other people aren't as lucky to have a family like yours and friends who are supportive and love you for you and nothing more. So live for you, not anyone else. Because when you meet that person, you'll live together, forever. And when that happens, which it will you can tell those Fairytale books to kiss your happy ass

Plastic

There's this huge craze about being perfect and having the perfect body. In reality no one has it, that's why there are gyms, diet pills (which don't work btw) and plastic surgery. Some people want an all natural build, especially for guys, so they go to the gym and work out, build muscle and achieve the way they want to look; either muscly or tone, it's their personal choice. Diet pills, yes I'll confess I did try it when I was in High School. Did they work? No, they didn't. I don't recommend it at all. Plastic surgery, I confess I do want to get some things done. yes I know some friends say I don't need it because I'm pretty the way I am. Bull. I don't see it. I probably have BDD, which won't surprise me with the way I grew up and some put-downs I've had in my 21 years. Anyways, just a few tweaks here and there. My nose, lipo, maybe boobs? I know I don't need boobs right now, but some day when gravity finally does it's work and padded (not very much, like I said I don't need it..yet) and under-wire bras don't help anymore, maybe a nip and tuck might help, it's my body. I'll be careful with the finances, I'll save up, after I buy my camera of course. I won't take out a loan for a boob job. I don't wanna go to the bank and say, 'Oh I I need a loan please for boobs.' Um, no thanks. I'll wait :)

I'm Yours by The Script

You touch these tired eyes of mine
And map my face out line by line
And somehow growing old feels fine
I listen close for I'm not smart
You wrap your thoughts in works of art
And they're hanging on the walls of my heart

I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
And though I may not look like much
I'm yours
And though my edges may be rough
I never feel I'm quite enough 
It may not seem like very much
But I'm yours

You healed these scars over time
Embraced my soul
You loved my mind
You're the only angel in my life
The day news came my best friend died
My knees went week and you saw me cry
Say I'm still the soldier in your eyes

I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
And though I may not look like much
I'm yours
And though my edges may be rough
I never feel I'm quite enough 
It may not seem like very much
But I'm yours

I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
I know I don't fit in that much
But I'm yours