I don't know what I did in my past life to deserve the one I have now.
I love my family even though sometimes they get on my nerves. It's normal
I love my best friends. They know everything about me or almost everything.
The one thing in this life I don't care for is the fact that I'm a creature of emotion, yes all us humans are emotional at times. But I feel mine is to the extreme. I fall hard and fast emotionally first. I care, sometimes too much. People can say that's my weakness or my downfall. Another thing I hate about me is being impatient. It sucks. Yes patience is a virtue. Well I'm not getting any younger everyday; I already have grey hair and I'm not sure if that's hereditary, stress induced or well, I don't know, getting older!
I want my life to start already with someone. Someone who I can share things with, see the world, have memories that will be with me forever, take silly pictures that I look back on when I'm 50 years old and turn to my best friend (hopefully a future husband) and say, "what was I thinking?!?! Wearing a thing like that?!?!"
Thinking about this and not being able to have it, it breaks my heart.
Everyday I tell myself that if I have to live this life alone, then so be it. My friends and family will always be there for me. I believe and hope that it would be enough for now...
