My Day

Today wasn't a bad day at all. There was nothing special about it, but it was better than the other days. This is going to sound sad, but trust me, it's not; I promise. Today I came to realize that if I am to live this life alone, so be it. I don't mind it at all. There are so many upsides to this lifestyle: independence, no one nagging you about where you're going, who are you doing it with and when are you coming home? See, it can be a pain to have someone there asking you this, especially if there are trust issues. Not good.

The way I imagined my life is not at all the way it turned out. I thought I'd make the Dean's List. I didn't. I thought that I'd have an apartment or a huge house by the time I'm 22. I do not. I thought I'd have someone who I can hold hands with, kiss and be with whenever we both want to. I do not. I am so okay with this. This is the thing about life, it's unexpected.

There will be things I know I can compromise on later in life, but the one thing no one can take away from me is my happiness. And future kids. Single or not, a fling, not-so-serious relationship or a serious relationship, I am having kids. I will not compromise this. I do not want kids later than 33 years of age. I don't care about the gender, hair or eye color, I just want healthy babies. Two kids, option of a third. Who knows, it all depends.

But there will be some things I'll miss having a significant other. I.e.-someone to come home to, a person who says he loves me for me, a father figure, someone to encourage me when times get tough. But to me these are little things. I didn't grow up with a father, and I'm fine. Truth be told I never much asked who my father was. Someone who'll encourage me, what are best friends for? They can get the job done. A person who says they love me for me, hello, I have family. Someone to come home to, I do want a dog, maybe something medium size like a beagle. See, it's not so bad. I look forward to this.

With this said, I'm not going to close myself off from possible future relationships, not at all. My mind is still open to it actually. What I'm saying is, if it happens, great. If not, then it's great as well. I can't wait to see where this life leads me to and how it turns out.

"Out of respect for things that I was never destined to do, I have learned that my strengths are a result of my weaknesses, my success is due to my failures and my style is directly related to my limitations."