Speak

So right now in Psychology we're talking about emotions and how we handle it. If we talk about it or not, if we have a pokerface. It really depends on who, what and how my emotion is triggered for me to talk or not talk about my feelings. If something is bothering me or not. How badly it bothers me. I usually, mostly let things just roll off my shoulders, but there are just some things that bother me, and silly me, I talk about it.

There are times that I think if I didn't talk about something that bothered me, if my life would be in a different path. Or I did talk about it, but the outcome was different. Would it had made a small or big difference that I did talk about something that did bother me?

So my psych teacher is also a shrink, and today in class we were talking about emotions and how we handle it. Normally I wouldn't volunteer something about myself in a class that is full of people who I don't know very well. But I was curious about something that has been bothering me, so I asked my question and she said: "You may not like what I'm about to say, but do you want to know?" Of course being innately curious I said yes. So her answer was, "The reason is because you probably see yourself in the problem, is that right or is there something that you can relate to that?" She is good! It's true, I do see myself in the problem and there is some thing that I can relate to.

I don't mind being part of a problem. There are things that I have to know because if I don't, it would bother me to know if the outcome would be different. The thing that really gets to me is the 'what if' in life. Two nonthreatening words, but put them together and they can haunt you. This is why I talk about things that do bother me, because I have to know. No matter the consequence.

Because if I didn't talk about something that bothered/bothers me, I know for a fact, my life would be in a different path right now. But maybe there is a reason why I talk about my feelings when something does bother me and why I'm heading in the path that I'm on now. I'm ok with it, just curious to see where this one road takes me.

"No matter where you go, there you are."